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I have denied my eyes, both inner and outer. I am not a child, or virgin, or modest wife, fearing to offend. No one owns my eyes now but me. If I have not the stomach by now to look upon any sight in the world, good or evil, beautiful or vile, when shall I? It is far too late for innocence. My only hope is the much more painful consolation of wisdom. Which can grow out of knowledge alone. Give me my true eyes. I want to see. I have to know.

Lois McMaster Bujold#144

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About this quote

What does it mean?
The speaker rejects innocence and modesty to claim full ownership of their perception and knowledge. They believe wisdom requires the painful acceptance of all realities, good and evil.
In plain terms
I choose to see everything clearly, even the bad parts, because true wisdom comes from knowing the truth.
What can you take from it?
Seek knowledge even when it hurts, because avoiding reality prevents growth.

Where it applies

  • personal growth
  • facing trauma
  • intellectual honesty

Putting it to work

  • journaling difficult truths
  • studying controversial history
  • confronting fears

Questions to consider

  • What truths have you avoided seeing?
  • Is ignorance ever preferable to painful knowledge?

Another view

Demanding to see all evils can cause unnecessary psychological harm without guaranteed gain.

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