I believed in my own heart that it was necessary. But I also hated him. Will I ever be sure that I didn't do it because of that hatred, that longing for vengeance? I fear that I will always suspect that I am an assassin in my heart.
About this quote
- What does it mean?
- The speaker doubts their own motives for a necessary action, fearing hatred drove them rather than duty. They fear carrying guilt as an assassin.
- In plain terms
- I wonder if I acted out of necessity or just because I hated him.
- What can you take from it?
- Even necessary actions can be tainted by hidden hatred.
Where it applies
Putting it to work
Questions to consider
- Can you truly know your own motives?
- How do you live with past actions?
Another view
Sometimes we cannot fully know our own motives.
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